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Post by ZeroSuperHero on Mar 18, 2013 23:38:47 GMT -5
I don't necessarily hate people. I really don't. I'm the kind of person that will protect the ones I hold dear till the bitter end, but I don't want to take my chances with wanting to let new people into that little bubble I have. I have been lied and conned way too much to have the urge to want to make new friends, to put my heart out in the open like that. Last year, a tragedy struck me really hard, and it's really affected the way I see people today. I'm terrified to put all my faith and trust into a "best friend" only for them to end up leaving me permanently - To never come back. I hope that, with the friends that I will meet later on on PStC, I'll have a lot better luck getting to know you. I hope that I wont be scared become friends with each and every one of you. I'm not a mean person, I'm just protecting myself and my heart. If you talk to me I wont bite, I promise. I hope that, with time, I'll break out of this shell that I've made over me and I'll be able to give you all my trust and faith early on. If you help me do that, then I'll forever be in your debt.
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Post by FallinN on Mar 19, 2013 15:10:21 GMT -5
I am with you on this! I will however say that I hate people! it seems no matter where you turn people are betraying each other for stupid things. Society has pushed things on everyone, but when an individual doesn't follow suit to the rest of the world they are tortured, made fun of, etc. Its a sad thing when everyone is in whatever they are doing for themselves. Even if a person is helping you, odds are they are trying to gain something themselves. In other words I understand where you are coming from.
Like you I am a great person once you get to know me. If you choose to make the effort to be my friend you will gain yourself the most loyal person you have ever met.
But we don't have to worry about that since I have know you for a decent chunk of time now XD
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Post by JoshiiWah on Mar 19, 2013 16:52:03 GMT -5
People in general don't really piss me off, but I do tend to avoid social events i'm invited to. I blame that mostly on being broke and not wanting to come empty handed to a party or gathering of friends..
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Post by the Яedrøgue on Mar 19, 2013 17:34:02 GMT -5
Interesting view points. Hate is a very strong word to me. I reserve that for specific people who directly influenced my life in a very negative way. It was also at some point, a word I directed at myself. I believe everyone experiences it at some point in their lives because we feel accountable for whatever happened and the easiest way to cope is taking the blame. The mistake as I realized.. was dragging it with me for a long time.. dwelling in it didn't solve anything, infact I just felt worse overtime.. feelin hate and self-pity.
The way I see it.. sure we are humans.. and it is totally normal to feel "hate".. given that it is justifiable like if you or someone you care for were done wrong. We all know there are crazed people too.. who also feel hate on others for no apparent reason other than they are psychologically challenged or just fueled by negativities. Their reason or lack thereof.. I don't find justifiable. But for a lot of us, who are capable of good reason.. I believe hate is simply a choice. We could choose to let it affect us for a time being.. or for a long run. How I dealt with mine is that I learned to forgive. Not necessarily the people.. after all, the past is the past.. along with the people. But who's here right now in the present.. the one I have to deal with everyday is myself. And I chose to forgive myself.
I'm not saying that anyone I meet in the future from this point on will never break my trust. It's most likely bound to happen again. But I won't also say that I'm a person that will get pushed around. Not anymore atleast. When push comes to shove, I make sure that person is right next to a cliff lol
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Post by ZeroSuperHero on Mar 19, 2013 22:36:58 GMT -5
I agree. People are people, no matter what. It's not going to be their fault that a lot of idiots in my past decided to hurt me to the point to where I'd rather be alone than risk hurting myself to be their friend. I'll always give them a chance. When it comes to that, though, it's like walking on egg shells. And it sucks, but it's true. :/
I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
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Post by FallinN on Mar 20, 2013 0:06:59 GMT -5
And we all love you as well. XD
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Post by 340402309 on Mar 20, 2013 6:00:04 GMT -5
Hate is a strong word, and not a good one at that. But it happens. Sometimes much more often than expected... Life is weird with things. Every person, at some point in their life, is dealt a shitty hand. Some much more than others. Whether you think you're prepared or not, trust me, you're not. You can say you don't give a f*ck, or you've had it happen so many times as this point, that you're immune to it, well, you're not.
Not the stuff that matters anyway. Sometimes things just slip away from us, be it because of a choice we made, or an action of another person towards you.
Over the years, I've lived an odd life, definitely far from the "Normal" be born, raised, go to school, get a girlfriend, job, education, ect.
I used to resent a lot over it, and I spent a lot of time in that resentment, especially when I realized what it had done to me, and all the things that could've been done to avoid it. I've blamed myself over the years, for something, that was out of my control. Something you don't think, or realize when you're a child, but when you develop, and learn/see/hear/smell the beautiful world around you, and notice something is wrong, it all hits you, and comes crashing down like a dying tree.
The thing to realize, is much like a dying tree, not everything is in your control. Sometimes people slip from us, die, hurt us, make us feel worthless, powerless... No matter how much you cared, or loved them. It just happens.
And the bitterness, and resentment settles in, and begins to eat away at our being, or very soul.
It's this point in time, that you need to stop, and take another moment to realize... Choices were made, by you, or that other person, and this is the result. Maybe you did something wrong, maybe you didn't. But this is the part where you stop, and take a look at the big picture. Understand that you did, what you did.
In the end, that's what matters
One human being can only do so much. You made your choice, and they made their choice, that's all there is to it.
You're still breathing right now. That's a victory to cherish right there.
I've had a lot of resentment over the years, be it for myself, or other people. I spent too much time doing it already. Life is short, and I want to enjoy what I've got. And I will. No more past mistakes, lost loves, or broken friendships to slow me down.
No more. Tomorrow is a new day ladies and gentlemen, get out there and enjoy it. When life throws you a shit sandwich, throw it in the trash, and make yourself a new one, with all fixings you want.
Your are You No one else.
In short, yeah, people suck, a lot. But not all of them. My prime example?
I've got all you guys, here today, making a small dream I always had, of building a successful forum, come true. I've had the help of who I consider a brother Zach help me too, help me found, and build this place into what it is.
And I restarted an old friendship with Lindzee, who I hadn't talked to in years really since last week, and here we are again, talking daily.
And that's just the forum's staff. I've got all you guys here again, whether I'm just getting to know you, or I've known you for years now.
It may seem small, but to me, that's a miracle. It's reasons like this, that make me glad I'm alive.
Every, damn day
I love you guys, you're the reason I stay positive when things look bleak, the reason I'm glad to be right where I am, right now. And a reason for me to stay a faithful, and loyal person. Brothers, sisters, and friends to the end you guys.
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